I don't handle relationships well. I'm an idiot at platonic, LOVE and family relationships. I can't seem to please everybody and in the end I become unhappy myself.
Many relationships form without you realising.
I've heard so much about boy-girl relationships and all those love shit in my entire life but few end in mutual bliss and harmony. It seems the most difficult to handle and yet people are just so happy to jump right into it. Some get to be torturer, while others are tortured. But the key is, we are all so happy to subject ourselves to the complexity and uncertainty of these relationships.
Before you know it, someone has become a part of your life and he/she plays a part in your sorrow and joy. Gradually, your emotions are dependent on each other. In the process, some people resisted that bonding and preferred to control their passion and 'love less'.
He/she couldn't love. He/she doubts relationships. Doubt means he/she questions love. Doubt means he/she is not ready. Yeah, roll eyes.
Ideally, love is mutual and two-way. Realistically, it doesn't happen most of the time. So when it's unbalanced, one party experiences pain. Your body racks with the strain of a surge of emotions- disbelief, regret, disappointment and closure.
You try to rationalise. You try to numb yourself in work. You try very hard to stop remembering the good old days. You try letting go. You try not to cry.
You try, with all your might and emotional strength, to put out hopes that continually rekindle themselves.
Letting go is a technique, which comes with experience. Unfortunately, the more easily you are able to let go, the less value you view each relationship. It's a bad inverse effect.
Life doesn't stop. It brings such beauty and sometimes sorrow. You grow. You experience. You accept. You live.
Relationships form, and unfortunately a lot of them break. You don't get many people who'll love you genuinely and eternally. So even though it might sound clichéd, the maxim holds: cherish what you have and don't dismiss the presence and efforts of people who love you.
I realise it's part and parcel of our lives. Those who manage to break out of the love-break cycle secure a life partner. Perhaps that's why people risk so much to seek THE ONE.
Easier said than done.
I can't do it myself.
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